Seventeen

It’s her birthday.

Part of me wants to say “Dear Darling, Happy birthday! Love you lots! Signed, Me”

and part of me wants to rip out my heart, stick a candle in it and give it to her
to say, “here, make a wish, and while you’re at it, blow out the fucking candle that’s keeping this fucking flame alive, cause my heart just can’t take it anymore”

and part of me wonders if she would wish for what I want her to wish for.
I wonder if she would wish for us back.

we are nowhere and this is now

It was her 4th party that day, so she called it her 'after-after-after party' and spent it in the basement bathroom with a Spanish stripper named Fabio and a boy who had love bites scattered all over his chest playing Mao in the shower stall.
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"The only person who's ever given me their number was the police officer, and it was the suicide-prevention number, too. But, hey, you gotta start somewhere!"
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"I fell asleep on the bus today while some chick was hitting on me," Aaron muses into his red plastic cup. "But, in my defense, I'm gay."
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fluid pistachios

"I'm not sure what sex i am"
"you're a female."
"but i think i'm a male."
"then you are a male."
"but you just said i'm a female?"
"your gender is male, but your sex is female"
"aren't they the same thing?"
"sex is between your legs, and gender is between your ears"
"but what about the days where i feel like i'm nothing?"
"then you're genderfluid"
"but what about if i felt like i was a female?"
"then you would be considered cis."
"but i'm not,"
"so then you are a transgendered."
"does the trans stand for transformer?"
"only if you're willing to morph yourself."

gender issues

"if i shove this dildo into my pants and keep it there for a few days, do you think it'll blend itself into my skin and i'll end up with-a penis instead of a vagina?"
"I think you've reached your marijuana limit,"