错的人

you didn't do anything wrong.
you were just the wrong person.

nobody understands how I feel.
when the dust settles.
my dry lashes
settled hands
uncrossed arms
truthful words
firm poise
lax mind
indigo bruises
quivering mouth.

I am the aggressor.
I am the victim.
I am a
broken heart
scythed wrist
popped pill
diluted image
scarlet letter
tired soul
velvet pendulum
fluid stone.

and what is left.
is a another life torn away.
a
grounded dragon
flightless swan
paradoxical conversation
methane blast
trashed paper
longing schoolboy
fruitless tree
barren gas tank.

and that existence is I and I am that existence.
not life.
existence.
the way to change my destiny is to change myself.
and that is simply not an option.